Jab, jab, jab - that's how this part year has felt. Sadly many of the punches landed resulting in me falling flat on my a$$. I got up each time for a sweat breath, only to be hit again. I've often asked myself, "How many rounds of this can I take?" The truth is life isn't willing to let up until we gain the lesson, which allows us to move forward.
So what is the lesson of 2 failed jobs, a failed relationship, isolation, loneliness, weight gain, and sugar addiction? Letting go! That has been the main message I see through my experiences, hear when I meditate and signs I see in my day to day life. I've had to let go of what I know about who I am and the world around me. I had to let go of my expectations of others because that always ends in disappointment. Had to let go of a relationship that was failing from the start that I changed myself to mold into only to learn that compromise doesn't mean changing yourself completely. Had to let go of feeling so excited about mentors in my life that I thought could really boost my career - only to be let down when their life got in the way, as humans do.
Some introspection is healthy here......
What I've Learned
I am a person who deeply desires and thrives off connection with others.
I require a lot of freedom and autonomy in my work and relationships.
My imagination is stronger than my determination has been and that has held me back.
I am a manifestation machine and yet I get in my own way due to fear.
I am more spiritual than I ever realized.
I am stronger than I ever realized.
There is a little girl in me that is dying for play and entertainment - I must listen to her more.
I have a calling as a mindset coach as evidenced by the many clients I've helped.
I am enough.
How Have I Grown?
I am more patient and understanding than I ever was before.
I am not giving away my power as easily.
My desire to be around growth minded people has pushed me to seek deeper connections.
Why Was I Brought to NYC?
I came here to: develop my passion for coaching, discover who I want to be in a relationship, what I'm looking for in a career and company culture, further cultivate my mindset practice, develop an insatiable habit for personal development and lead with what I want rather than what is available.
I've been playing small with my coaching and it's time to step up so I can help others who are struggling with the very things I have overcome.
I'm opening myself to new possibilities in work and life.
Life is truly what we make it. Every obstacle is an opportunity to learn and grow. Every setback is a redirection or reminder that we are on the wrong path. Follow your gut, listen to your heart and never stop going after what you truly desire.